Many people start a powerful spiritual path with the idea that everything is now going to be pleasant. That because you are co-creating with God, talking to your guides, choosing the deeper spiritual way that it is smooth sailing from here on out. That the Fairies are going to magic away all of your problems. Then when things aren’t that way they feel like something is going wrong. The path is different for everyone but it seems that everyone has their moments of struggle, of feeling lost, and of doubt. One night when pondering this I wrote the following:
I stumble on this path I walk.
Feeling frustrated, broke, lost alone, and tricked again.
I know there is a plan. I created it so long ago,
That I can’t remember the purpose my friend and I had.
I smile at the thought of the moment when it reveals itself like a sudden crash.
It is the bolt of light that illuminates all for an instant.
I have had those blinding moments before.
They are what keep me chasing this storm;
This storm that shakes the old foundations.
This storm that pours refreshing waters almost painfully down on all.
When I feel like it is too hard, wet, and dark; I hear that rumble.
I feel it in my toes and I know the flash is coming.
Then that blinding light hits my soul.
I burst with laughter, reminded of the beauty, and feeling the love for all.
Including the stumbling, broke, lost, and bitter person I am at times.
I tell you this to give you hope. If you have times that you want to give up. If you think you have lost faith or don’t believe anymore. It’s okay and it’s normal. Let yourself feel these feelings. It means you are getting to the bottom of your resistance. It means you are close to another break through and you need to get broken down to surrender. Just know that you will then have an amazing experience very soon that will confirm everything for you. We are human beings with lots of feelings. These feelings help us navigate our paths.
The concept of a spiritual path is one that I think gets taken too literally. This is not a path from point A to point B. It is a way to experience life. We are not going anywhere on our spiritual paths. There is nothing to obtain. It seems to me that many keep looking for where “the path” is taking them. It’s like they are expecting some pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. The path is about stability. A spiritual path, no matter what it is, is the support you turn to, the beliefs that create your life, the magic you can connect with to remind you of the larger whole, and where you receive your guidance day to day. It is about moving through your experiences with grace not achieving something. It is about moving through your emotions to feel with clarity. Stop looking for happiness, success, and love. Stop looking for the new instructions to “lead you in the right direction”. Just be happy. Just be a success. Just be love. Stop “following a spiritual path” and instead feel, hear, see, taste, smell, and be your path.