Wisdom from The Fairies and Me

This is the Intermission

I have been personally feeling what I describe as a “push/pull” energy. I can feel, see, know, of amazing things on the horizon but can’t seem to touch, shift, or move towards those things. I feel overwhelmed by a to-do list that never seems to get done and keep burning the candle at both ends. It seems I am overwhelmingly busy and yet not getting anything accomplished. I thought this had to do with my personal “stuff” (which it does) but I noticed a lot of other people having similar experiences and expressing their discomfort in it. It can feel like, or even be, the next big step is right there and you want to take it but circumstances outside yourself are keeping you from moving forward. Even this blog, I had wanted to write but it took me running myself into the ground and getting sick to finally sit down and do it. This is an old pattern of mine I thought I had let go of. This is another part of the energy right now. Experiencing the past, be it people, places, or old cycles. I am having moments when I can smell the house I use to live in, relive a memory I thought was lost to time, and interact with people I thought I would never see again. I asked the Fairies for information about this and how to be more balanced in it. Here is what they had to say:

“You are in the intermission. Act 1 of 2012 has finished and Act 2 is about to begin but you need to rest so you can give Act 2 your full attention and intention.”
“Is Act 2 in 2013?” I asked
“It is a little different for everyone. Some started Act 2 this week, some still have a month or two before the overture starts. Others may not even notice when it does start, but we would suggest that this not be the case for you. We wish you all to be very aware of this rest time and the beginning. There will be lots of foreshadowing in these beginning stages, glints of the future, inspiration that will be buried and then bloom later. Please pay close attention to passing thoughts, visions, and dreams.”
“You talked about an intermission. How do we find peace or what should we be focusing on during this intermission?” I asked
“The intermission can feel uneasy and chaotic to some. Everyone is running around doing little things but feeling stuck. Take this time to breathe, relax, get your food (the things that feed you), and release what has been pressing on you. Get yourself to a place of feeling like you can sit and focus on the next big thing. This is a time to tie up loose ends and finish unfinished business. Very soon you will hear the first note of the band calling you back to your spot.”
“So, what I am hearing you say, is more of the surrender and acceptance which is always my personal issue.” I said
“Yes but also it is about being gentle with you. Letting go of your judgments and criticisms about yourself. Take care of your physical needs and allow yourself to rest or play or be silly. Do what you need to really release and relax.”

“Thank You Fairies”
I have found that just knowing the larger energy that we are working within can make it easier to operate within it. I hope this helps you find what you need in this moment for your soul.

I am working again on my book The Fairies and Me and came across this channeling. I felt like it would be helpful to many at this time.

“Today is the day you can stop living in fear. You do not have to believe that the world is dying or that everything is irreversible. Believe in the power of humans, Fairies, angels, bees, cats, dogs, whales, trees, flowers, fruit, aliens, dragons, crystals, dirt, stones, and all energies that are working towards the wholeness of this place you call Earth. The rebalance has already begun. Find the balance in you and let it shine out spilling deep into the earth, radiating out over the planet, up into the cosmos, and through all realms and all dimensions. We love you. We love your planet. We love all the amazing natural energies there. Join us in love. Open your heart

There are many of you who think it is unsafe to open your heart all the way; that this will make you vulnerable, weak, and open for attack, disappointment, and hurt. That is because you think opening your heart is like opening the door to a big empty house. NO! Opening your heart is like busting open a dam allowing the river to flow and flood where it has been drought. The power of love flowing from you when your heart is open is like a Giant waterfall spilling out and joining ‘The One’. There is no need to guard and protect when you are in that space of true powerful love. This is not just romantic love, but the love for life, the universe, the planet, and EVERYTHING. When you open your heart you explode with love, sending it into, and all over, everything around you. That is what you fear, not the vulnerability but the power. It is the uncontrollable wave that takes you over and forces you to crack open and release all those broken bits. Then you will be in love, then you will be in your wholeness, and then what will you do? What will you do? Will you embrace this amazing power that resides in you? Or will you keep running? Are you looking for Freedom?

Freedom is often misunderstood. People often see freedom as basically nothingness. This vast empty space that you fly along. But that is not freedom. Freedom is about being in your power, about stepping forward and not feeling the connection and ties to anyone. It is having pure motives and clear integrity. Freedom is knowing that you are speaking the truth. Knowing, and totally confident in yourself, and your knowing, and in the expression of who you are. Once you surrender your judgments, you surrender your insecurities, when you surrender your need to be in control of your life, when you surrender what you think you need and you release any preconceived ideas about yourself and the world; then you truly move into freedom. Being able to start each day as if it is the first one you have lived; seeing the magic and wonder of every miracle that surrounds you on the planet, seeing the gift in every person, that is to know freedom. Freedom does not come with something you gain. Freedom comes in letting go of it all, but not letting go of it all into nothingness; letting go of it all so you are light enough to be totally who you are and step forward. So embrace your freedom. Surrender all that you no longer need: everything that is not helping you or serving you at this time. Feel the freedom of releasing it all and being who you are.” – The Fairies

The Shootings

After the shootings in Connecticut, here in the U.S., I had many people ask me for a message from the Fairies to help gain some perspective and lift them out of their grief. I was having trouble doing it yesterday and I figured out why this morning. I needed to share a perspective I have gained from working with the Fairies about the violence in our society. Already people are calling for stricter gun control laws or blaming violence in the media. We are a violent society and I don’t believe that comes from the media or our weapons. To me that is like saying sadness comes from crying too much. The violent acts we see, feel, and experience are a reaction not a cause. We were incredibly violent for many years in this country before media. We fought wars, beat slaves, and experienced rape before there was even a radio. Plus the weapons were our inventions and they were not created without a purpose. We are not naturally violent but it is a natural reaction to oppression. When a wild animal is caged it lashes out. We are in a society that is very oppressive. It was incredibly oppressive and we were incredibly violent. Our society is becoming less and less violent as people become freer to pursue the lives, spirituality, and relationships that they want. This has been changing over time all over the world. In some countries there is more violent acts on a regular basis, then here in the U.S. and I would argue that those people are under a more oppressive government or religious rule. We have been seeing a lot of these types of governments tumbling down in the last few years and that is because it is time for Humanity to be free. We are in a time of chaos, shifting, and intense energies. This shift is not that we will all be love and light and happy all the time. This shift is about we as a society choosing; love over fear, compassion over hate, and conscious living over unconscious living. Why did this tragedy happen? It could be that it will put a spotlight on the untreated people walking around with wounded hearts and minds. It could be that it is time for us to revisit laws on our guns. It could be that these beings that passed needed to do their work on the other side. I don’t know and probably never will. We need to stop asking why and instead ask how we are going to react to it. I asked the Fairies for a message too. Here is what they had to say:
“This event has triggered in many of you grief, sadness, anger, and the feeling of powerlessness. We say trigger and not caused because those feelings were in you already. These feelings were in the mass consciousness of Humanity already. You do not need to figure out why the feelings were there just acknowledge them, feel them, and release them. These acts of violence that are occurring and will continue to occur all over your world and your reality are catalysts for these feelings to be released. It is like a wave that travels across the globe peaking high in certain spots and certain times. The US needed this catalyst to release and open to more compassion. There are no villains or evil doers to fight. There is just fear and wounds of the heart that can be dissolved with love and compassion. Take this time to reflect on where you still feel hurt and love that part of yourself. Look for those around you that are having trouble and love them in what ever seems the healthiest way. Mostly this is a reminder to focus love on the children in your life. Children hold the keys to joy, wonder, and love. Help them remember that, honor them, and give them the space to shine.” ~ The Fairies.

Welcome to the Apocalypse

The word “apocalypse” does not mean the end of the world. The true definition, from its Greek counterpart, is something that has been hidden being revealed. It means a revelation of truth. We are definitely in those times. Those end times. The times when that which has been hidden is being; revealed, underlined, highlighted and marked with a star. Denial is no longer an option. Some people need to leave this planet or this reality to join with the truth. Some people just need to face it and acknowledge it. It seems to me that the keys to our expansion are being handed to us right now. I had a BIG revelation this last weekend as did several of my friends and family. The ideas, relationships, feelings, etc., that had been the proverbial brick wall that we were banging our heads against suddenly became very clear. Instead of beating our brains against it, we were able to step back and look at clearly, as if for the first time. Sometimes clarity can be like a gentle sigh of relief that allows the ropes tied around you to fall away and at others it is the white hot intensity of a million suns melting away the chains you have bound yourself in. Either way the clarity sets you free. It allows you to see where you have punished yourself, shamed yourself, and blamed yourself (or those around you, or the universe). The clarity can feel like it is about other people, events of the past, or the situation we are in, but it is really about how we have lied to ourselves.

The last three months I had been in what felt like a downward spiral. I had lost confidence in myself and my abilities. I had doubt about what I had been doing or where I was “going” in life. I told my husband that I felt like I had spent the last 20 years building Stonehenge by myself. I had been carrying these huge blocks to the right place, carving them, and shaping them and setting them. People would come by and look in awe and say, “Wow that is really amazing. You are doing something really profound.” and then they walk away. I was thinking why the FUCK am I doing this! Is this really doing anything for anybody? More importantly is this really doing anything for me but causing me pain and wearing me out? We all have these dark moments when we need to question what and why we do what we do. It led me to a big “A Ha!” that was actually a few “aha”s put together.  The core of it is this. We are magic. I am magic. You are magic. We have to face our denial and fears so we can let them go and focus back on the magic of who we are. I kept trying to protect those I love from the world. If you asked me I would tell you that I felt safe and on a certain level that was true. I as a singular person felt safe and trusted the Universe to take care of me. I did not trust that those I love would be safe. Some how they needed me to protect them. How arrogant am I? I was interfering with other people’s paths for what I thought was best for them. I thought that I had to take care of them because I couldn’t trust that they were safe in the world. This includes various family members, friends, my husband, and my children. When I clearly got it I saw why I felt so alone. I had not let others in to help. I also had not given myself the space to fall deeper into my “work” by distracting myself with taking care of everyone else. The reason I was losing confidence was because I let others set my standards of success. Also I had ideas about what results I should be getting or how others should be “healing” from my actions with them and it was not manifesting that way. We manifest from what we need. I needed to see how I was interfering with others’ paths to avoid mine.

As we see all that is being revealed, be it personal or global, I hope your clarity feels more like a sigh of relief and you are able to celebrate your new freedom. For inspiration I suggest listening to “I’m Free” by The Soupdragons.

A Little Reminder

Many people start a powerful spiritual path with the idea that everything is now going to be pleasant. That because you are co-creating with God, talking to your guides, choosing the deeper spiritual way that it is smooth sailing from here on out. That the Fairies are going to magic away all of your problems. Then when things aren’t that way they feel like something is going wrong. The path is different for everyone but it seems that everyone has their moments of struggle, of feeling lost, and of doubt. One night when pondering this I wrote the following:

 

I stumble on this path I walk.

Feeling frustrated, broke, lost alone, and tricked again.

I know there is a plan. I created it so long ago,

That I can’t remember the purpose my friend and I had.

I smile at the thought of the moment when it reveals itself like a sudden crash.

It is the bolt of light that illuminates all for an instant.

I have had those blinding moments before.

They are what keep me chasing this storm;

This storm that shakes the old foundations.

This storm that pours refreshing waters almost painfully down on all.

When I feel like it is too hard, wet, and dark; I hear that rumble.

I feel it in my toes and I know the flash is coming.

Then that blinding light hits my soul.

I burst with laughter, reminded of the beauty, and feeling the love for all.

Including the stumbling, broke, lost, and bitter person I am at times.

 

I tell you this to give you hope. If you have times that you want to give up. If you think you have lost faith or don’t believe anymore. It’s okay and it’s normal. Let yourself feel these feelings. It means you are getting to the bottom of your resistance. It means you are close to another break through and you need to get broken down to surrender. Just know that you will then have an amazing experience very soon that will confirm everything for you. We are human beings with lots of feelings. These feelings help us navigate our paths.

The concept of a spiritual path is one that I think gets taken too literally. This is not a path from point A to point B. It is a way to experience life. We are not going anywhere on our spiritual paths. There is nothing to obtain. It seems to me that many keep looking for where “the path” is taking them. It’s like they are expecting some pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. The path is about stability. A spiritual path, no matter what it is, is the support you turn to, the beliefs that create your life, the magic you can connect with to remind you of the larger whole, and where you receive your guidance day to day. It is about moving through your experiences with grace not achieving something. It is about moving through your emotions to feel with clarity. Stop looking for happiness, success, and love. Stop looking for the new instructions to “lead you in the right direction”. Just be happy. Just be a success. Just be love. Stop “following a spiritual path” and instead feel, hear, see, taste, smell, and be your path.

WTF!?

We are in the midst of earthquakes, hurricanes, political questions, financial struggles, and relationships shifting. It is enough to make someone yell WTF?! Many have been talking about this being an opportunity for us to shift from fear to love. That we need to put our focus on love and let go of fear. This is easier said then done. I wanted to help all of you get a larger perspective of what is happening, get a message from the Fairies, and give you a simple exercise to help you keep your center. I was hoping to this in the form of the video but, as I will explain, things are not going smoothly right now and it has to be in blog form.

We are currently heading toward Halloween, Dia de los Muertos, All Saints Day, or Samhain. No matter what you wish to call this magical time of year, it is when they say the veil is the thinnest. What does that mean? Well, it means that it is easier for us to communicate and experience beings in other realms of existence. These could be Ghosts, Ancestor Spirits, Angels, ETs, Animal Spirits, Fairies, etc. There is a thinning within us that opens us to the idea of something more then what we experience in our day to day. This is a time when our soul seeks magic. We are also in the year 2012. This is the year when an energy that has been building for a long time is hitting its peak. The peak will be at the end of the year which is almost upon us. I see this energy as a shift in Humanity moving from a fear based reality to a love based reality. So, as we head toward the time of year when our soul longs for magic, and we are in a time when we must face our fear and move through it so we can live from love, we end up with a lot of chaos. What Humanity fears almost more then anything is the feeling of a loss of control. So we experience these many different ways of being out of control. This pushes us into trust and the energy of love.

It is very important for you to know that if you are feeling fear then you are doing everything right. The fear has to come up. It may rise as anger, sadness, anxiety, or depression, as well as feeling scared. It is important to let the feelings rise and release. Do not try to negate them to push you into love. You must move through them into love. Also know that November is going to be one of those portals time. One of those months when we experience a lot of deaths, major changes in jobs, living arrangements, and relationships. It is no accident that the election is in this month. This is also a time when things will not feel like they are going smoothly. Be very careful and clear with your communication. Be very clear on your intents for projects or even just your day. When glitches happen; breathe, stay calm and allow yourself to find the solution or another way to do what you want. Like when none of the cameras in your house work for you to make a video so instead you have to make it a blog.

I asked the Fairies for a message for everyone and this is what they said:

This is the time for Humanity to remember they are magical beings who can create amazing experiences. When you focus on fear and worry you can create that fear and worry ten fold. This is not a bad thing. Humanity needs to face their fears and worries and experience them to realize they are more then these fears and worries. Too often you tell yourself that if X or Y happened then that is it. It would be the end of you, your life, or your existence. But we promise you that when X or Y happens you will rise above it. It will not be the same experience you created in your head. As humanity keeps facing their fears they realize that no matter what happens they will go on. Life will keep evolving and changing as you do. Some events may bring an end to the way you are but if your life changes that dramatically you will see it is for the better. Let these current events strip you down to the beautiful Divine light love core of your being. When you stand in this energy nothing can threaten you, because you know your connection, purpose, and value. We are with you always on this journey. Please ask for our help at any turn.” ~ The Fairies

The Fairies also gave me an exercise to help with this process.

  Get yourself comfortable. Close your eyes. Take a few deep breaths and focus on the light in the center of your being. Watch this light spread through your body filling you up. Now bring forward what ever you are worrying yourself with, afraid of, or stressing about. Experience this as an object in your hands; however it wishes to take form. See how small it is, take some time to look at it, feel it, sense it. Now ask the Fairies to come and take this away from you. Ask them to bring you a solution. Affirm that you are no longer wishing to trouble yourself with it any more. Now bring you focus to the light energy that has filled up your body. Allow this energy to expand out and fill up the room you are sitting in, then the entire building, then the entire city, state, country, world, and keep expanding out until you are connecting with the Sun. Then let it expand bigger. Realize that you can no longer see the room you were in or the problem you held in your hands. Let yourself be in this limitlessness for awhile. Then bring your awareness back to your body knowing you are still connected to that limitless energy.

I hope this helps you expand your consciousness about these events and brings some comfort to you. I send love to each of you and thank you for receiving it.

I LOVE Myself

I am a recovering alcoholic. Today, October 22, 2012 I have 15 years sober. Part of being a recovering alcoholic is that you continue to take moral inventory of yourself and your life. This last week I have spent a lot of time reflecting about my past. I am so grateful for my life today and how amazing it is. I am often humbled by the experiences I have had. I have often said it is my ego that took me on my downward spiral and it was humility that brought me back. I work very hard to not allow myself to fall into my ego including the magic I experience on my spiritual path and in my spiritual work. Then I had a revelation, maybe I do this too much.

I have felt that I love myself and have done a lot of work around self love over the years. I can look in the mirror and say “I love you.” I feel like I am a good person and in general feel good about myself. I use to hate myself. There was a time when I wanted to kill myself. There were days when I could not look at myself in the mirror. Those days are behind me and I have made great improvement. I realized that, though I have improved by leaps and bounds since then, I have kind of hit a plateau. I got myself to a baseline of self-love. I can see the Divine in me. I can love who I am. I hold it right there. I don’t take in the gratitude and love and support of those around me. I don’t allow myself to see myself through the eyes of all of those around me. I do this for two reasons.

The first reason is the ego issue. My ego will tell me I know better then God or anyone else and convince me to make horrible choices, so I resist it. I also resist pride and in turn my confidence is shaky. When someone experiences a great healing session, or is moved by the words from The Fairies, I don’t take any ownership. I am just the vessel. What I forget is that the vessel is a part of the whole experience. Any caterer can tell you that what you serve the food in can greatly impact how the food tastes. How something is presented effects how people take it in. I am a part of the experience and yet I negate my part.

The second reason is that I have given my power away to others and they have not validated my goodness. Over the years I have let the opinions of family members or friends judge me. For one reason or another I thought that they knew more then me, or had a clearer picture of me, and would let their opinion matter most. I have been dismantling this, especially this last year. Sometimes I have a thought about myself and I have to ask myself if it is my own thought or one that I adapted from another. The really odd thing is I could have dozens of people telling me how great I am but a negative comment from someone I gave my power to would have ten times more weight. Why? Because I had already made the choice that they held the power.

I have made the decision to take my power back and be proud of whom I am. I will take in the compliments, when they come, as truth for me to hold. I will receive with gratitude the love and support from others and the universe. Most of all I will honor my part in all of this creation that is my life. I will no longer love myself at the bare minimum afraid of my ego. I will embrace my magnificence and rise above the petty thoughts of others. I hope that all of you will join me and we can sparkle with the stars together.